Mariah Carey reveals how she battled with bi-polar disorder, says she had feared being exposed

RnB singer, Mariah Carey recently disclosed her struggles with being bipolar in a recent interview with People magazine.The singer talked about her having been in denial and having feared that her ailment would be exposed to the world.

“Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me.”

“It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn’t do that anymore. I sought and received treatment, I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I love — writing songs and making music,” she says.

Mariah Carey mentioned how she mistook the form of mania for severe insomnia. The singer also had to deal with the constant fear of letting people down which prompted her to overwork and deprive herself of sleep.

“For a long time I thought I had a severe sleep disorder,” continues Carey, now back in the studio working on an album due later this year.

“But it wasn’t normal insomnia and I wasn’t lying awake counting sheep.

“I was working and working and working … I was irritable and in constant fear of letting people down. It turns out that I was experiencing a form of mania.

“Eventually, I would just hit a wall. I guess my depressive episodes were characterized by having very low energy. I would feel so lonely and sad — even guilty that I wasn’t doing what I needed to be doing for my career.”

The award-winning singer is now taking medication for her condition which makes her more energetic. Mariah mentions that feels in a better place to share her struggles with the world. The singer tells People magazine that finding the proper balance is very important.

“I’m just in a really good place right now, where I’m comfortable discussing my struggles with bipolar II disorder.

“I’m hopeful we can get to a place where the stigma is lifted from people going through anything alone. It can be incredibly isolating. It does not have to define you and I refuse to allow it to define me or control me.”